The Boy Who Could Fly (but Decided to Fall)
Hello, Beautiful. You are absolutely amazing.
I love everything you throw at me. How much you care; because I do too. I never thought you and me would be more than friends, and yet, here we are. You’re my girlfriend. I’m your boyfriend. Not my imaginary-pine-after-lady of the year, and not your man-friend. My girlfriend, your boyfriend.
I was all settled in nicely to just take the scraps you gave me. It still astounds me that somehow, your giving me the scraps turned into you giving me everything. Before, I was a peasant on the streets, begging you for money. Now, I’m the king of the world, and you stand next to me. I’m like a superhero, and you are my superheroine.
I promise, now that I’m here, I will do everything to make this work. I’m not going to be like the others, where you gave them everything and what could have been beautiful was thrown away like garbage. Cos that’s not what this is; this is like the feeling that everyone is looking for. People search their whole lives, and never find this. We have. I’m not saying together forever, that’s a long time to promise at such a young age. Together for as long as we can, yes. I expect that to be a long time, though. I hope you can stomach me for that long.
It’s still the small things though. Your eyes, when you smile, the way that you have such expressive eyes, yet they chink up when you smile. Your smile, how it just spreads wide across your face. I’ve never been so struck by a smile before. And I want to be one of the reasons you smile everyday. Every small touch, from touching your face, playing with your hair, pinching your nose, covering your mouth. It’s like static, but without the “ouch.”
Hello, Beautiful. These are the words that I’m learning to say. Though they may not be as articulate, and pretty, and artistic as the first letter, these words are just as true. I don’t know if you’ll ever read this, but these words are here for you to read if you ever get to. These words still mean everything to me, but not as much as you do. And the best part is, you already know all this. None of this is new anymore. You know everything.
I used to sit on the moon and dream of sun. But now, I’m a part of the sun. And it a part of me.